everything was my fault

God loves to play games

Everytime I get back up, life pushes me back down.
Everytime I find redeemption, it slips away.
Everytime I think things will work out, they don't.

I'm giving up

went to the doc's today to see if my knee would make the match on monday, turns out the injury was WAY FUCKING WORSE then initially suspected. fml. 4-6 WEEKS to recover, I'll effectively miss the rest of the goddamned season. fml. (srs)

HOLY SHIT.

OKAY GOOD NEWS FIRST.
We won the match! 1-0 hahahahha omg so happy we actually did it!
the team did okay so yea! a well deserved win GO HOCKEY!
Was playing striker again hahhahaha

WELL THE BAD NEWS.
SCREW THAT! I tore my meniscus cartilage and dislocated my knee.
LOL!
omg..... i'll be out for awhile... well doc said takes a few days to get better so im hoping to play against ACS(I) ahhahahah

Well, from what i can recall, the lower half of my leg beyond the knee didnt move then the thigh area made a 180 and POP the goddamn knee poped outa play. Goddamn that hurt like hell.

Thank god the doc twisted the leg back together proply or i'll have to go for surgery
Thank god.

Today someone cared.
Surprising,
caught me totally off guard.


Thanks luv, made my day :D

Well tomorrow we get the chance to redeem ourselves.
I'll give it my all, Everything.
Screw the ankle, screw the blister I'm gona play it and they are gona PHEAR ME.

oh fuck.

five - zero.
enough said.
im not saying the team didnt give it their all, but the mistakes made have lead us to concede so many damn goals.
i am disappoint.


well i cant say i did well either so, i dont have the right to scold or criticize anyone.

well we could win, really.


ah fuck that

Growing

Got my act back together,
damn i cant be waiting all day now can i??

Back to being me,
the Misunderstood me that is.
Salvation was taken from me, pushed from the path.
Its not my fault anymore.

so anyways today got mah good o' comp back
happy as hell get to game again spent too long thinking

Feeling alot better recently, but hell it'll never go back to the way it was

Happy, Sad, Tired and Dazed

School was hard to bear.
because there was not one there.

Well, did my official 2.4km run today 10mins 23sec.
MADE THE A GRADE!!!! WHOOOHOOOOO!
well all that training was worth it.. about time I got some returns
I could have done better if there were people there to cheer me on, like for so many other people.
Jealous, Envious and Pissed Off.

I slide back down the spiral of self-destruction.
No one can save me now.

Stressed, confused and lost.

not doing too good.
tried to get my mind off things today, went on wondering around in the blankness
seriously things keep getting worse.
Family, hell i dont know where to start
School, lost as hell what to do
Hockey, season starts next week got too many things on my mind to concentrate
Life, sucks.